~seasonal friendship~ i hope you'll be reading this

at first i think i can ignore you...well actually i cant...

because there's a sense of disappointment frustration and a lil bit of anger...

this is not the 1st time in our friendship...

before this i had the feeling...but i ignored it because i really love you as my best friend...

i was influenced by my emotion...sad..extremely sad when you ignore me...

but then because of love i try to mend things back...even though i'm the one who supposed to be coaxed....

but still no response from your side..no effort from your side..you prefer being silent...

then suddenly the old feeling that i've ignored came across my mind..

"seasonal friendship"

every time you have someone new or close or special in your current situation, you'll keep silent with me...you used to say it's your anti social mode..

but when those people left shit in your life you'll find me and say i'm the only friend that you have...because i love you i dont mind being treated like that..

what i know is i'm very happy to see you happy..

and i'm very angry too see you being treated like rubbish...

but i dont know if you take me for granted...you repeat the same thing again and again...

now you are in the anti social mode...you put your pic with 'some1' who before this you considered not too close to you as i am...you've put me aside...

it's ok if that is your choice...

now i know that you have been practising "seasonal friendship"...you come and go whenever you feel like to without considering what is happening to this person who is me...am i ok? am i not? do i have anything to share? do i need someone at the moment?

i hate to say this but i can see the selfish side or yours...

i won't be affected this much if you dont promise anything...the thing is you always promise the beautiful things in our friendship but you cant keep them...that what makes me disappointed...

i wont touch on this anymore...what needs to be said has been said...

what i want to advise you is...treat people the way you want to be treated...

people wont be there for you if you cant be there for them...

life is about give and take...yes we wont get as much as what we've given but just believe in karma..what you did you get back..what goes around comes around..

dont remember that you have friends every time you are in the hardship only...

people wont feel hesitate to do the same to you in future...

appreciate what you have before you lost it...

now your best friend is her...you know who i meant...ya the person in your pic...so treat her nicely...dont treat her the same way you've treated me....i know exactly how the feeling is....

lastly....farewell...

p/s~i dont know you'll be reading this or not but i really hope you'll be reading this....

i hate this feeling but at the same time i cant keep it any longer...farewell and good luck with your best friend...